Well, I guess here's where I just speak whatever is on my mind.
First of all, let me say that I have had a boyfriend (on and off) for over two years. Do you ever just feel like you KNOW that someone is your "one"? I feel that right now. It's weighing really heavily on my mind. I just feel like there's something really different between us now, and I love it. I have NO idea what changed, but now our relationship is so fun and loving and easy. We talk like we're best friends and laugh about everything. It's like it all just fell into place for us. I have some trust issues with him, which are justified, but I'm finding it really easy to forgive and forget because I can feel the sincerity of everything he says and does now. Maybe breaking up was the best thing to happen to us? Either way, it's like a new relationship, and the fact that we're doing the whole long distance thing (since I moved to Tuscaloosa and he's still home finishing up his senior year) has really made us make the time we have together count. I'm keeping my fingers crossed; he's been trying really hard in school and on his ACT so he'll be able to get a scholarship to a school in Tuscaloosa next year so we can actually be together. It makes me so happy to know he's making that effort and commitment.
Next topic: my birthday.
Gosh, I'd almost forgotten about it until I got a syllabus with October 5th marked as an important date coming up. My sister is getting married on the 8th, so my whole family is super busy. I'm not expecting too much attention for my birthday this year.. Oh well, maybe next year, huh? I know it sounds so selfish, but couldn't she have picked at least the next week? or the week before? SOMETHING ELSE.. but that's out of my control. I've decided that I'm going to take almost all of next week off. After my only class on Tuesday, I'm going home! It'll be nice to just take a break. I know no one is reading this, but maybe one day I'll look back over it and remember my exact thoughts and feelings during this period of my life.
I can't think of anything else really, except that I really want to know what Gauge got me for my birthday.. I guess I'll see soon enough. I guess for a first entry this one wasn't too bad!
-B
